My Internal Chain of Command

An exploration of my trauma through internal family systems, exploring the human connection and sharing survivor stories of those who have faced trauma, survived, and continue to heal.

    The Archives: A Timeline of My Journey So Far

    A chronological collection of my journey through trauma, healing, self-discovery, and growth. Start at the beginning and follow along as I learn to understand my patterns, confront my past, and uncover the person beneath them.

    • Survivor Stories, Part 2: Lindsey Allen-Conley

      Lindsey Allen-Conley on survival, healing, love, and becoming herself after trauma. Introduction In Survivor Stories, Part 1, we heard from Lindsey Allen-Conley as Michael’s spouse—someone who loved and supported him as he shared his story. In Part 2, we hear from Lindsey as a trauma survivor herself, with her own history, strength, grief, humor, and…

    • When Firefighters Are Used to Numb the Pain

      Chapter VII – Understanding numbing firefighters through Internal Family Systems, compassion, and the parts of us trying to survive. Trigger warning: This post discusses eating disorders, self-harm, substance use, overdose risk, compulsive behaviors, pornography, shame, and suicide risk. If you or someone you know is in immediate danger or experiencing thoughts of suicide or self-harm,…